Is Absolute Possible??

I like my things in black and white. I absolutely hate greys.*I dun mean clothes* But I've realized that I've got so many greys in my life! I have so many things that I've kept in my old luggages, thinking, oh maybe someday I will use it. Someday I will wear it. Maybe I will need it. Blah blah blah.*or does this happens to most people??*

It all boils down to my indecisiveness with these stupid little things!

I've kept so much stuff.

Old hopes, old dreams, things I hang on to, waiting around so that if it does happen, I will be there to embrace it. People that I've hung on to, old friends that I hope to continue to...old hobbies that I still want to take up, old ambitions etc. Though I've subscribed to the simple, quality not quantity life. I don't want a complicated life so I ONLY want a small collection of everything, my stuff, thoughts, things that I will do with my life, friendships, relationships.

So I should let it all go now. Or at least take a more stringent inventory. Move on, woman! Forget sentimentality. It does nothing for anyone!!!

I never "collect" but in a way I'm so over "collecting" material things, friends, activities, new interests, pleasing everyone etc. It's a woman's nature to be accommodating, no?

Away with complications! Nothing should ever be complicated. It's complicated because I allow things to be. Just as BC told me yesterday about “complication”. In fact, it was she who said this to me.

They clutter my life! They clutter my head, my mind, my space, my breath.
Away with these things! I don't need more things, I will now only go for quality.

Everything shall be a quality investment of time.

To the end with complicated matters. Stuff it all.

Back to work on a Gloomy Friday……..

At The Crossroad......

Recently I've been rather quiet because I've been writing a lot internally. Things about the future are still uncertain and I've been feeling rather impatient. Everything's on hold right now and its not even in my hands to decide my own crossroad. Although, it was my choice to allow this to happen prior to that. I stand by it with conviction.

I think there is a time to just enjoy the day as it comes and trust that we can overcome it.

I've been going through several creative periods where I just feel so creative!*singing my tunes in the bathroom and talking to myself before I goes to bed probably has been more of distressing to being creative*

I remember the last periods of quiet time of my life was probably about five years ago when I stayed most times in the room reflecting on myself and the road I should take from then .

It was peaceful.

I was alone often but not lonely because I could feel the many friends waiting to see me moving to a new direction, always with me.

Perhaps I'm in that mode again while preparing me for what is next?

Lianz in Venice....

Hi hi.....here i am trying to squeeze in some time for a real short post for a few people....mmm....ok,some people then.Firstly,sista,happy birthday!!!!juz in case my timing is all wrong by then....by the way,im all mixed up by time n dates....argh.....the cold weather is killing my nose and head,giving me migraines and causing me bad sleep.boohooo......pout.....THen,to all my gal pals out there....sux,i cant spent xmas with you ppl there.....super sux!!!!MERRY X'MAS to YOUUUUUU....*i'll be in Switzerland for a White Xmas then*.....

I felt so lost in virtual world.MY internet access is so limited here BUT my "willpower" to shop here is atrocious...heeee...yes,PRADAs,MIU MIU,FURLAs & GUCCIs are on S-A-L-E-S!!!!!woohhhooooo.....do i hear people wailing ????muhahhaaa.....
Yes!!!! PRADA & FURLA conquered for now.......wheeeee......i almost got myself "bankrupt" in PRADA!!!!Well,my "will-power" is still strong!!!
I was such a material girl yet trying to tame myself by telling myself "no...no more,dun do that kathy!!!or your lecturers are gonna "counsel" you on your 1st day of class".....booohooo....

Argh,it's 9:48pm here and the dark cold sky and the awful thoughts of not being able to sleep yet having no shops around starts killing Lianz!!!Yes,not even food outlet to say...there is a pizza cafe opposite my hotel but it closes @10pm anyway.....Sighhhzzz
Food here sux....i'm "downing" myself vigorously with "cafe latte" on a dosage of approximately 3cups per day AT LEAST!!!!*i've never fancy coffee to start off with*.......

Mmm...ok,i gtg for now....no one's on MSN anyway at this miserable time of 4am Singapore time .....
Ciao......

Screensaver Mode Lianz......

My mind is buzzing at a speed that my understanding can't catch up. That is probably why I never am able to have beautiful handwriting. I can barely keep up with my thoughts.

Remember the story about how Thomas Edison (or was it Einstein) had two cats - a big and a little cat? Annoyed at always being interrupted in his labwork to let those cats in and out, he made 2 holes in the wall. One large one for the big cat and a small hole for the little cat. You would think he should have been smart enough to realize one BIG HOLE in the wall is sufficient.

That's like me today. There are so many things going on and I could hardly breathe the whole of November and now I am into DECEMBER….and believe it,I love Christmas………………………
I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS TO WRITE!

My mind was so focused with my eyes half opened, with thoughts running through it at a zillion miles per second.
It was as though my brain just went on screensaver mode.
Automation to the max……….

Part of my head was doing this ping-pong thing where I explore every possible scenario and various responses and part of it was like a MacBook Air overheating at the verge of shutting down. Next year seems a very exciting year though….my mind went into a rage of 1001 things I’m looking forward to do and to go ahead with. I always seem to know how to give myself more work to do, and more things to work out. ?!??!?!

I want to stop thinking about it but I'm afraid I will forget everything. When inspiration hits me, my brain just goes into overdrive mode and thoughts just can't stop flowing

Okay I better stop……..

Here are some pictures of me and my gal pals over the whole period of time where I went missing and being missed by all……..on this bloggie blog…..


A Lianz Affair......21/09/08


A Sista Affair......12/11/08


The Hen's Affair 20/11/08

Lonely Affair @ The Airport 23/11/08

The Big Affair......29/11/08

Wait!!!!!

All Those wasnt So Lianz Right???Muhahhaa....

There were Parties after then....


Lianz In Armour Suit!!!!!Who dares To Smile???


A Toast To Friendship.....

Poser Princess.......

Lonely Babe @ Lan Kwai Fang with her Lychee Martini....:)

Hahaaa......3 Drunken SPGsss......

I love love love. This is so my kind of thing. Sooo me.

Insomia....

Ooops...i'm trying hard to sleep...*argh***........i'm still listening to the radio playing DEPECHE MODE'S "Somebody" now.......it's awesome...heee...i love that song but i hate it that i cant sleep now and i'm intending to wakie @ 6am in the morning for yoga class.......bleahhh..i pray hard i don't disappoint myself to wake!!!!I MUST !!!!!I MUST

*kathy knocks herself to sleep as the radios plays "SUKIYAKI"arghhhhh***

Nitezzzzz..........*tries to ZZZZzzzzz....*

Kathy's In The Zone

Something's happening.

I'm in the ZONE.

I can't type or even think properly - with literally a FLOOD of ideas and thoughts and I'm running on adrenalin. I don't have time to digest my thoughts.

The world economy's worrying state blah blah is not affecting me at all. In fact, I'm encouraged by it. Its going to be a new world and its time to move quickly.

I have evolved again.

Mrs Ong For A Month

Hi Hi...ooohhh i'm so married for a month today...keke...Yes,no post for so long...i'm so lazi in loading up my photos and plenty plenty of peek-tures thru out the preps and all the fun i had for the eh....past 2mths i guess....ok...will try to load up abit of each happenings soon alrighty??.....meantime,let me nuah abit in the office for today since i'm "boss-less" for a few days.....Heee.....till then.......